For the past couple of years I have been getting sucky results. What I didn’t realize was that they were self-imposed. I thought that my situation had to do with outside forces. My decision to go into business, the subsequent fire, the choice to choose the wrong business partner, my business going bust, being sued.
I was living in the world of self-limitation, because I blamed circumstances. Sure, there were things like the fire that affected my business that were outside of my control. But, truth be told, I was in complete control of how I handled it. I was also in complete control of how I handled the demise of my business and subsequent lawsuits.
I caved. I told myself that I couldn’t start another business until the lawsuits were over. Nobody told me that. I stopped myself from succeeding.
Well, the lawsuits are not over. And, I don’t know when people will stop suing me.
But, I do know this. I will not let that stop me anymore. I am in control of my destiny, not lawyers, not business partners, not people who tell me it’s safer to just go get a job, not people who tell me that I failed so it’s best to not try another venture, not the voice in my head that tells me I can’t do it.
I am learning not to use excuses like…
If I had been given a chance…
If other people didn’t “have it in for me”
If the economy were better…
If my family understood and supported me better…
Now, I know that I have to think differently. I have to believe I deserve all the best life has to offer, I have to believe in my abilities and that I have value to offer others. And, I have to hold on to those beliefs no matter what or who kicks me in the butt. And things will shake my tree again and again – it’s just life.
So, I’m going into 2009 with eyes wide open, head held high and with an unwavering belief that I can do, be or have anything and everything I desire.
And so it shall be….
Happy New Year.