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Money, money, money
By Lee Ann | February 16, 2009
Money and I have had an on/off relationship for years now. There have been times when my bank account was a welcome home for it and other times when, well, the money I had didn’t want to invite any more friends to the party.
Why?
I’ve gone over and over this. Why did I let my bank account or income get to a certain amount and then shut the door or spend so that no more comes in? First, I know I’m not alone with this. There are scads of experts and prosperity coaches who tell us that we have money comfort zones and we don’t like to go too far from them.
And it all is based on untruths we tell ourselves. For example, I thought at one time that if I made more money than my friends that they wouldn’t accept me anymore. Well, this belief actually turned out to be partly true, which at first annoyed me. Then after deeper reflection, I realized that they weren’t the best friends for me in the first place. So, we parted ways and I became comfortable with my income.
Then, I started subconsciously doubting myself. I felt that I wasn’t worthy of the money and spent it back to my comfort level.
On deeper reflection, I realized that I didn’t want to make more money because that would bring added responsibilities, and I didn’t feel ready for more responsibility in my life. Now, I realize that was total crap. My weirdness about having money was nothing more than a struggle with self-doubt and self-worth that I’ve had for years.
When will it change?
When I change it. And, there’s no better place than here and now to state that I am worth every dollar that I desire. Whatever I have done in the past with money is released and doesn’t exist anywhere except between my ears.
There. I’ve said it. And, not in a boastful or egotistical way. I merely want to be publicly accountable to myself to keep my new attitude about my self-worth healthy.
And, I don’t desire money to feed my ego. I realize that money is just a mirror to myself of how I’m doing on my spiritual journey.
If you’re experiencing issues around money - if there’s never as much as you would like. I suggest you hire a coach to explore that - you’re worth as much as you would like - and then some.
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